Mexico

You never know how much you're spoiled until you meet someone who has nothing but the clothes on their back and a smile on thier face. It was from day one that I was wanting to throw everything away, and give it to a boy; sweet and caring. People on the outside may only see Mexico from a resort view, but thats only a piece. Family, a strong bond that pulls everyone together; because really thats all that they need. As this little boy smiled for an old soccer ball, deep in my heart I wanted to give him more. So the next time I want or my son wants something, I'll imagine this little boy and ask myself do I NEED this?

Quince!!

 Our trip in Mexico :)

Family

Still Standing

I wasn't going to fall for it; a false gesture. Though it was as if nothing changed. We talked as if nothing happened, but for me it was as if I was the only one badly bruised. I could have gave in and hugged him, but I wasn't going to let him hurt me again. Jokes and laughs can engulf us, but my wall is still standing. Time will only tell if I let the wall crumble.

Letting Go

I'm slowly letting him back in. Even though its five minutes I get to at least spend with him, I'm happy. I know I probably won't get my best friend back, but if this is as close as I'll get; I accept. As I listen to songs that remind me of us, I also accept that it was real at one point. True Friends.

Though I can't give him what he wanted, I hope he's happy; even if he's more happy then I am.

When I catch his glance, I sometimes can't look him in the eye. At one point in time, I wanted to give us a try, but why would I want to jeopardize a friendship as close as ours. Even then he barely go into a relationship and I wasn't going to allow my jealousy ruin it. Though he was mine first, I let him go.

Moving on from what "used to be" is hard for me. I don't think I can hug him, tell him I love him. Now that I look back on it I should have given more hugs, took advantage of hugging him; because now I'm paying for it.

So here is the last "I Love You."