Wanted attention from you.
Not the kind where you touch my ass and then...
*Bam*
Face in the pillow as you take me from behind.
The kind of attention as a look.
The look you gave me when I had our babies,
The look you had on the day I married you,
The look you had when we first became an us.
I just wanted you.
Then she arrived.
It was 6 o'clock
All day I heard nothing from you,
You never hold my hand in public,
We're never "in love"
It's like 13 years together and time has run out.
I want to cry every time I see you look in her direction,
Are you thinking I was the second choice.
Are you thinking that knocking me up was a double whoops
I was just someone to spend time with.
My heart hurts as I try not to cry.
My head hurts just listening to you act like nothing is wrong.
You looked in her direction every 5 seconds till she was no longer in sight.
Why wouldn't you she is pretty.
She's everything I'm no longer...
Beautiful, kind, skinny,
And here I am with a bad attitude, anti social, and no longer that person I was in highschool.
No surprise everyone likes her.
Maybe if covid took me you would have had your shot.
Everytime I decide to love myself,
I get knocked down 4x more.
I loved myself yesterday and this morning,
Tonight there is a hole in my heart.
It's not her fault,
It's probably not even yours...
Maybe it's mine.
