changing my mind

If I thought about how many times I'd hope to tell you something important; like "I love you". It would be more than one hundred. The sound of your laughter clouding my entire mind. The sound of you drumming your fingers on the red lunch tables. For me it was never easy giving up my feelings to anyone. But now that it came down to you, I'm missing out. I will continue missing out because I never opened and forced the words off my lips. Instead they linger in my mouth spoiled because you were never given the chance to hear them. Late. Never will be said.

Moving

Albuquerque, here I come.
School Here I come.

Fouth Of July

It was just my birthday yesterday, and today I was spending my 4th of July with him. No matter how many times we seperate, things and events always bring us back together. He can tell me to stay away or to be distant, but soon we were laughing and spending time together as if things were normal. I want things between us to be normal but sometimes they can't be. He still looks at me with that weird observing eye, he's the only one that looks at me that way. To me its his signature stare, trademarked and copywrited.

As for today, I'll go back to the way things used to be; distant and un-normal.