Baby will be here!

SoMo

You Can Buy Everything

Hook (4x):
You can buy everything
But you can’t, you can’t buy love 

Verse 1:
I've seen a million dollars in my bank
But it don't mean nothing without you
I've run a long time
I've run a long time
Been failing myself
When I'm without you

Hook (4x):
You can buy everything
But you can’t, you can’t buy love 

Verse 2:
I'd die for you
I'd lie for you
I'd steal for you
I'd cry for you
I ride for you
I'll lie all night underneath the sky with you
And I know
That the times right
But i want it all night
You are so damn right
I just wanna hold tight
Fucking every all night
We'll be fucking all night
I just wanna love you
I just feel right
I just wanna touch you
I just wanna squeeze you
I just wanna feel you
I just wanna please you
I just wanna love you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna love love love you all night

Hook (4x):
You can buy everything
But you can’t, you can’t buy love 

Outro:
All I wanna
All I wanna do is
All I wanna
All I wanna do is
All I wanna
All I wanna do is
Love you
Love you
Love you
Love you
Love you

I've had my hands tied
For so long
I've had my hands tied
For so long
I'm floating
I'm floating
I'm floating
Oh whoa

late night

I sometimes wonder if he meant what he said. I was the one who wanted to have a baby,
Can you believe it? he said "I was the ONE who WANTED to have a BABY! I." I thought we wanted to have a baby. Add another to our family. But instead he looks at it as more work to do. Now he works long hour with 2 jobs, I see him "luckily" for five hours out of the day. Or let me rephrase that. "Lay next to him for five hours."

But as they say "If you dont want a lazy man, dont be sad about having a busy one that pays the bills."

Off Guard

Sometimes I can't help the way I feel or react. the train can come to a halt or straight up crush me to pieces. Maybe its not enough to be calm anymore. I want to feel every emotion. Pain, right now is all I feel. Brushed off as if it's no big deal but deep inside it's killing me.

Us was all I wanted. Time to get use to the idea was what I needed. Maybe we should have let each other go, like you wanted. Ugh, why do I continue to hold on to everything like they belong to me. They were brought in my life for a reason maybe, just a puzzle piece in my life. A complicated life at that. 

I was caught off guard, knocked to my feet.

 

On My Playlist

If You Don't Love Me Now
Why would you ever love me?
If you don't love me now.

If you don't want me around
Why would you ever want me?
If you don't want me around.

I hear silence
I feel sound
I'm all alone with your letter
Who's gonna save me now?

If I don't move, can I still breathe?
You won't take me down that empty street.

So when the wind blows
Watch me.

If you don't love me now
Why would you ever love me?
If you don't love me now.

If you don't want me around
Why would you ever want me?
If you don't want me around.

Smoke and mirrors
You sure fooled me
When you can't feel the weight of what can't be seen
I loved you when I couldn't love me.
You were there for saving

So when the wind blows
So when the wind blows
Watch me.

If you don't love now
Why would you ever love me?
If you don't love me now.

If you don't want me around
Why would you ever want me?
If you don't want me around.

Then you should give me up now
Then you should give me up now

You held me up
How could you erase me?
You're letting me go
but I'm not falling

If you don't love now
Why would you ever love me?
If you don't love me now.

If you don't want me around
Why would you ever want me?
If you don't want me around.

Then you should give it up now
Then you should give it up now
Watch me

Paul McDonald & Nikki Reed

WiFi!

So maybe a lot has happened since November 2014.

I've finally traveled to a place with connection.
Put my plans on hold.
Wanted to have a baby.
Instead now raising 4 new puppies.

As for my life at this point. My husband doesn't say he loves me. Maybe people at his work believe were separated, no longer married.

I want him to shout it out to the world, I want people to know when he looks at me that he's in love. Instead I wonder if he actually does.
My heart can no longer take it.

Say I'm crazy.

But I want love, not lust.

My Best Friend loves me, and everyone can see that. Why didn't I marry him right? Marriage and My Best Friend should not mix. He knows my life maybe too much.

So why did I pick my husband.

I was Pregnant, One factor.
2. I loved him, Like they all say: he was never like this in the beginning.

We want to have a baby...
but I want to be in love. In love with the fact that we are in this together.
Not questioning "Does he love me? Does he want kids?" and the big one of all "Is he loving someone else?"

I come off demanding, strong, and cautious. But my heart breaks as much as the next person.

So please hate me for being too much in love.