Off Guard

Sometimes I can't help the way I feel or react. the train can come to a halt or straight up crush me to pieces. Maybe its not enough to be calm anymore. I want to feel every emotion. Pain, right now is all I feel. Brushed off as if it's no big deal but deep inside it's killing me.

Us was all I wanted. Time to get use to the idea was what I needed. Maybe we should have let each other go, like you wanted. Ugh, why do I continue to hold on to everything like they belong to me. They were brought in my life for a reason maybe, just a puzzle piece in my life. A complicated life at that. 

I was caught off guard, knocked to my feet.