WiFi!

So maybe a lot has happened since November 2014.

I've finally traveled to a place with connection.
Put my plans on hold.
Wanted to have a baby.
Instead now raising 4 new puppies.

As for my life at this point. My husband doesn't say he loves me. Maybe people at his work believe were separated, no longer married.

I want him to shout it out to the world, I want people to know when he looks at me that he's in love. Instead I wonder if he actually does.
My heart can no longer take it.

Say I'm crazy.

But I want love, not lust.

My Best Friend loves me, and everyone can see that. Why didn't I marry him right? Marriage and My Best Friend should not mix. He knows my life maybe too much.

So why did I pick my husband.

I was Pregnant, One factor.
2. I loved him, Like they all say: he was never like this in the beginning.

We want to have a baby...
but I want to be in love. In love with the fact that we are in this together.
Not questioning "Does he love me? Does he want kids?" and the big one of all "Is he loving someone else?"

I come off demanding, strong, and cautious. But my heart breaks as much as the next person.

So please hate me for being too much in love.