Last Night

I'm able to stand guard, tall, strong, and thickest wall ever. But when into battle, I have no army. Last night with no army beside me I was defenseless, I had no one there to shield me.
So as he hovered over me, I could feel his breath sliding down my back. He touched my side, that single second felt like hours, I told him to get away and he tookit as a joke. He walked and sat in the couch behind me and still I could feel his eyes touching, abusing my body. I still have shivers all over my body just talking about it.
The next time he hovered over me was when I could no longer stand it. He pressed himself against my lower back. He lingered there till I pushed him away. It continued for another two times. His wife was laying in his bed, children still loud and wide awake; but not around to see or notice what he was doing to me.
Im afraid to tell my mom, where would we go? My husband asked what did I do? It wasnt till this morning that he decided I shouldnt be by myself anymore. My brothers house is now a safezone till ten, but till then I'm on my own.
I now realize why I dont like myself, he ruined me. Stole my self esteem and I dont think I can get it back.
I want a home.