late night

my head has been going over and over,
on repeat,
on loud,
playing those last words "I'll talk to you tomorrow"

I can hear my brother in the next room,
but it's you who is talking the loudest.

I have friends,
I have pets,
I have family.
I spend my time alone,
not wanting to ever leave my home anymore.

No one should have to stop and change their life for me,
then again it's easier to cry when no one is around.
I try my hardest to put my makeup on,
and then I think to myself "what for?"

I can hear you laughing in my ear,
I sometimes feel your head on my shoulder.

All of a sudden I realize I'm alone again.
surrounded by scattered toys and socks that my baby's and dogs dragged around.
I have this heavy heart and I'm crashing to the floor.
Not one has saved me.
No One Will.

I couldn't save you,
does she know I sometimes blame her.
I should have been home waiting for your call.
maybe then you'd still be sitting on the couch;
XBOX.

I tell myself "it's her fault"
It's Her Fault.

You keep talking to me in my sleep,
and all I want is for it to be real.

But it's not her fault,
it's yours.

I'm alone because of you.
I blame your coupon!
I blame your need for a damn soda.
I'm alone because of you.