late night

my head has been going over and over,
on repeat,
on loud,
playing those last words "I'll talk to you tomorrow"

I can hear my brother in the next room,
but it's you who is talking the loudest.

I have friends,
I have pets,
I have family.
I spend my time alone,
not wanting to ever leave my home anymore.

No one should have to stop and change their life for me,
then again it's easier to cry when no one is around.
I try my hardest to put my makeup on,
and then I think to myself "what for?"

I can hear you laughing in my ear,
I sometimes feel your head on my shoulder.

All of a sudden I realize I'm alone again.
surrounded by scattered toys and socks that my baby's and dogs dragged around.
I have this heavy heart and I'm crashing to the floor.
Not one has saved me.
No One Will.

I couldn't save you,
does she know I sometimes blame her.
I should have been home waiting for your call.
maybe then you'd still be sitting on the couch;
XBOX.

I tell myself "it's her fault"
It's Her Fault.

You keep talking to me in my sleep,
and all I want is for it to be real.

But it's not her fault,
it's yours.

I'm alone because of you.
I blame your coupon!
I blame your need for a damn soda.
I'm alone because of you.

Baby will be here!

SoMo

You Can Buy Everything

Hook (4x):
You can buy everything
But you can’t, you can’t buy love 

Verse 1:
I've seen a million dollars in my bank
But it don't mean nothing without you
I've run a long time
I've run a long time
Been failing myself
When I'm without you

Hook (4x):
You can buy everything
But you can’t, you can’t buy love 

Verse 2:
I'd die for you
I'd lie for you
I'd steal for you
I'd cry for you
I ride for you
I'll lie all night underneath the sky with you
And I know
That the times right
But i want it all night
You are so damn right
I just wanna hold tight
Fucking every all night
We'll be fucking all night
I just wanna love you
I just feel right
I just wanna touch you
I just wanna squeeze you
I just wanna feel you
I just wanna please you
I just wanna love you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna love love love you all night

Hook (4x):
You can buy everything
But you can’t, you can’t buy love 

Outro:
All I wanna
All I wanna do is
All I wanna
All I wanna do is
All I wanna
All I wanna do is
Love you
Love you
Love you
Love you
Love you

I've had my hands tied
For so long
I've had my hands tied
For so long
I'm floating
I'm floating
I'm floating
Oh whoa

late night

I sometimes wonder if he meant what he said. I was the one who wanted to have a baby,
Can you believe it? he said "I was the ONE who WANTED to have a BABY! I." I thought we wanted to have a baby. Add another to our family. But instead he looks at it as more work to do. Now he works long hour with 2 jobs, I see him "luckily" for five hours out of the day. Or let me rephrase that. "Lay next to him for five hours."

But as they say "If you dont want a lazy man, dont be sad about having a busy one that pays the bills."

Off Guard

Sometimes I can't help the way I feel or react. the train can come to a halt or straight up crush me to pieces. Maybe its not enough to be calm anymore. I want to feel every emotion. Pain, right now is all I feel. Brushed off as if it's no big deal but deep inside it's killing me.

Us was all I wanted. Time to get use to the idea was what I needed. Maybe we should have let each other go, like you wanted. Ugh, why do I continue to hold on to everything like they belong to me. They were brought in my life for a reason maybe, just a puzzle piece in my life. A complicated life at that. 

I was caught off guard, knocked to my feet.